When I first fell in love with a sociopath, I had no idea. I thought that I found my soul mate and the love of my life. So much so that I began writing poetry. The first book, I called Amour d'hiver, Winter Love, a collection of love poems in English and French. It won first place in the 2009 NYC Paris Festival Awards. http://amzn.to/1gBIZ8k
The second book of poetry, is called, la fin de l'amour, The End of Love. Still driven to write about my love, the poems began to descend into confusion, desperation and despair. http://amzn.to/1gxk0OZ
Both are available on kindle and amazon, but I will periodically post them on this page.
Please comment if you've experienced the same emotions in your relationship. It's my hope that you and me and everyone who has gone through this do not feel alone.
Lovely poem.
ReplyDeleteSimple Love
ReplyDeleteLife is complicated
This much we know is true
But love should be so simple
And worthwhile to pursue
We live our lives each day
With internal confusion
Trying to decide
Choice and preclusion
Retreat to a place
That’s easy and free
The heart does not care
Where that would be
Perception is real
When feeling secure
In love that is caring
Faithful and pure
It’s something that lasts
Can’t be taken away
By those all around
Who lead us astray?
When life is too difficult
No solution abound
Remember real love
Is simple… and profound
Crumbs
ReplyDeleteI feed upon the crumbs
You often throw my way
As soon as I am strong
You throw some more, I stay
I cannot blame you really
It is a choice you see
Consuming all you give
To fill the hole in me
I seek to find the answers
Evaluate our love
Your silence is so deafening
To tell me that thereof
If I feast off the emotions
Lying on the floor
Will I have regrets
Before I close the door
How long could I live this way
A fragment of your love
My dignity is hanging
One thousand feet above
I think that I need more
For that I must insist
But when I walk away
You will be sorely missed
Don’t want to lose a chance
To find true happiness
I want to be in love again
The truth I can’t suppress
Wings
ReplyDeleteYou pulled my wings off one by one.
Till our love was nearly done.
Kept me grounded much too long.
Now it’s time I move along.
Day by day I spent my time.
Dependent on your love.
I could not leave, I could not fly.
Away or high above.
Trapped in memories from our love.
I could not turn away.
Time has passed, and I am strong.
My wings now will obey.
Up I fly with bated breath.
Afraid of what I’ll find.
Further from your life.
No longer intertwined.
I will soar into the sky.
Not knowing where I’ll go.
Will not look away or back.
My dignity I’ll show.
Serpent Sting
ReplyDeleteHeart in pain and stomach knots
Desire not to eat
Body yearns for rest
But doesn't welcome sleep
Dreams and goals that disappear
Invade your mind and soul
A melancholy bitter sweet
Of things you'll never know
You long to see your lover's face
And crave to hear his voice
To hold him in your empty arms
You cannot change the course
The warmth of breath upon your neck
The touch of his caress
You feel the bite and cry in pain
A sense of emptiness
A serpent’s sting, it hurts so much
You think that you will die
But time will heal all wounds
You know that you must try
The venom that was left behind
Will surely drain away
You will live once more
To love another day